Changing.

Can you still remember how i was before?

so violent, radical and never cared about how others felt?

The only thing I did was vandalizing, treating people as if they're shit, treating me as if I was the king of all. Didn't even care about my health, smoking like a fuck, drinking alcohol as if it is water, partying all night long - everyday.

But well, you changed me - a lot. I'm a better person. You're the reason why I changed. and maybe that's what I get for all the trouble I've caused to others.

I may not be the perfect guy, or the best student, or the best son.

But I changed into good, because of her, because of that one girl!

and I fell in love with this girl. She stole my heart.

I'm crazy about her. Everyday. Still.

Now that she isn't there anymore,

I'm on the way to change for bad. and may be forever.

Because I did everything for her, only to make her happy.

I wanted to be perfect for her.

I can say, she was like a drug for me.

I mean, don't you all feel like a junkie without his drugs when the one person you need isn't there anymore. You want her so bad, but you just cant have it.

and you're consuming all the bad things to make yourself happy, not realizing that you change,

and that your life is going down the river.

No you just cant realize, even though people tell you, you just wont believe it.

I think by drinking alcohol, smoking 2 packs of cigarettes a day I would feel better.

But no I don't, I feel worse.

The thing which helps the most when I'm in college. I've my friends.

They distract me from all that.

So yea I think love is like drugs.